Life after marriage

It has been a long time since I've written the last post. I was on the verge of a new beginning. Those who know me personally already knows what I'm talking about. For those who don't, let me tell you that I've got married. This is the new beginning of my life. By the way, let me tell you that ours is an arranged marriage (turned love marriage :P).

People say that life has not changed after marriage. Even I tell people this whenever asked. But to tell you the truth, there are lot of changes to count. My way of thinking has changed. The more careless and irresponsible I was, the more responsible and caring I have become. It feels good to care for my husband. Happiness is no longer one's own. It's shared. One draws happiness from the others smiles. I've (perhaps !!) learned to be patient. Listen and obey him(with lots of nagging though :P). The sense of security and comfort that I enjoy now was never before in the past one year.

Enough of good and philosophical words, the more realistic change is the way I lead my life. From the bustling rooms where I used to stay as paying guest to a house with two of us. From being under restrictions and orders of the tyrannous landlady, to a house where I can do things as I like.

And readers, if you are waiting for me to tell about "that" specific change in life after marriage, yes "that" too.

Life changes a great deal whether you accept it or not.

Awakened

The bright beam of sunlight made its way through my eyelids. But it didn't hurt me. It was not that scorching as I had thought. The world around me is getting much more clearer now. I have started stepping out of my dreamland. It's only that, it took me 24 years to be awakened. Perhaps , I didn't want myself to be awakened before. I feared the scorching heat outside. People around me, who cared for me, thought me to be too delicate to face the rogue world, so did I.

But now, I am awakened (not fully I must say). The world out of my dreams, is not that bad and ugly. I could now see the silver lining of the dark clouds. I now know that there is the bright, glowing sun behind. The dream world was undoubtedly, safer and comfortable, but it was certain that I could no longer keep myself cocooned in it. The long sleep had come to an end, making its way to a "new beginning".

Heart vs Mind

"I can't live without you" says my heart

"Why can't I?" says my mind

"I want to meet you" says my heart

"Ignore" says my mind

"I want to talk to you" prompts my heart

"Put the phone back" shouts my mind

"I want to listen to you" urges my heart

"Why should I?" dictates my mind

"I want to care for you" says my heart

"No need" says my mind

“I want to think about you” whispers my heart

“No time to think” scolds my mind

You have struck a fight

between my heart and mind

Now tell me whom to listen

my heart or my mind.